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❝ Hi, this is Xion. I'm busy right now, but if you leave a message, I promise I'll get back to you as soon as I can. ❞

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( she's acting the same way as she used to and to be quite honest, it's down right frightening her. was this how she looked? so robotic? emotionless, almost? it's like she was staring at herself. maka curls her fingers at the hem of her shorts as she sits there, watching xion closely. she can't let her go down that path, no. even if it means being by her every single step of the way. )

Xion, don't hold it in. The worst you can do right now is letting it bottle in inside. -- I know you don't want to talk about it, but... it'll help. If you want to cry, cry. If you want to yell, shout it out at me. If you want to throw a tantrum and throw things around -- anything. Just don't... sit there and let it sit.

I don't really have anything to hold in.

[she takes a deep breath, letting herself relax instead of tensing up like she had a few moments ago.]

I always knew something like this could happen. It comes with being on the Thor, doesn't it? One day you can be spending time with the people you love like nothing in the world matters, then the next, they're gone. Even if they come back, there's a chance they won't recall the memories you made together—they might not even remember who you are.

... He reassured me that things would be back to normal soon. If what he says about his research is right, he'll go home, and Hope will come back. And I believe him. Not only because he seems to know what he's doing, but... I still trust him. I always will, whether he remembers me or not.

[...she purposely avoids using his name, just to differentiate from him and her Hope. it's pretty obvious who she's talking about, anyway—who else could it be?]

But... even in the case that Hope doesn't come back... I can't let myself live in the past. I've been forgotten by the people I love most before. It's happened to me so many times. And while it's always hard, I just... I need to keep moving forward. If I need to start over, then I will. It won't be the same, and it's really going to hurt for a while, but... I know I'll be okay. I still have my friends, after all.

( there's a lot that maka wants to say here, unfortunately, there are all negative. she heard about his little experiment. an experiment that he shouldn't have done in the FIRST place. if he was set on staying on thor as he claimed, why test time travel at all? why risk your curiosity for something like this to happen that could be permanent? of course, this is just maka's point of view. she doesn't know ALL of the details behind the whole thing. and she isn't going to bring any of this up to xion now. it'll only worsen things and right now, she just wants her to get better somehow. )

( she lets out an inner sigh and let her annoyance past, for now. maka focuses more on xion's eyes and listening closely to her words. in truth, she's glad to hear this coming out of her. it took herself a very long time to come to that sort of conclusion. )

Edited 2012-03-22 18:12 (UTC)

( but saying and doing are two different things entirely, if not harder than the other. maka eases up on her grip before she raises at her feet. without a word, she approaches her friend and embraces her into a tight hug, resting her chin gently on her shoulder. )

You're really strong, Xion. And I have faith in you that you'll pull through this. But I want you to promise me one thing...

[the hug surprises her at first, but... it's only natural. she returns the gesture, her hands resting on Maka's back as she wonders what her friend is about to say to her.]

What's that?

Don't let this overtake you. Even when Hope comes back and everything is back to the way it was, don't spend your time thinking too much on "what if". You can lose yourself that way.